I could read to you. I could read to you every night while the stars greet the moon with their nightly whispers. We could open the window and with the sound of crickets chirping I could tell you stories until your eyes grow heavy with sleep. I would let you pretend that the words were written exactly for you because you deserve to be the hero. You even deserve to be the villain. When we reach the end we can sit in silence for a moment and let the heaviness that lingers with every finished book evaporate off our skin. We could start a new book, or we could reread the same one until our lips know the words even before our minds do. I could fall asleep with the book clutched against my chest. We could write our own story and pretend that a stranger knew us all too well.

I'm contradicted whether to be happy or sad right now, so I've been trying to pick happy, but it's hard.
Things are going well in general. I'm set up to graduate in the fall. My classes are going *surprisingly* well. I get to take my Senior Project with one of my favorite professors. I've just been largely talked up to the Captain at work mid-applying for a patrol postion and a RAM (Risk Assessment and Mitigation (Counterterrorism unit)) position. My brother is now back in CA, and visiting soon. The weather reached up to 70 today, and I get to coach in the morning. Gizmo has been jumping on my bed and sleeping with me at night. But, there are things that are contradicting my happiness. A major one being someone making false claims about me that could have the potential to be career-ruining if it gets too far. Annie and Nicole went out tonight without inviting me, knowing that I had to deal with this all week and said I wanted to go out last night. I have to work what's now being considered the biggest threat in the nation since nine eleven. I'm broke. I'm lonely.

At least my bros make me happy.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TXaezgbE-Zg

Go into the night
Go until you're out of sight
And you're out of my mind

Run when the rhythms right
Go into the night
Floating as the river flows
Easy as it goes to the ocean

So walk on by, I've got no reason to love you but I do, I do, I do

You're showing me colors of the sky
But all I see grey
You lost me when you lied
Promise me but you never try
Secrets in your eyes
You go and run, I'll hide
You're showing me colors of the sky
But all I see grey
You lost me when you lied
I don't ever wanna be crowned just another prize
It breaks my heart

Lost in the midnight blue shadows of the moon
Here with open arms for you, feeling something so new
Said with me you'd reach the sun
Oh but we were so young
Love me 'till the summer's done
But keep me in your heart so i hold on

So walk on by, I've got no reason to love you but I do, I do, I do

You're showing me colors of the sky
But all I see grey
You lost me when you lied
Promise me but you never try
Secrets in your eyes
You go and run, I'll hide
You're showing me colors of the sky
But all I see grey
You lost me when you lied
I don't ever wanna be crowned just another prize
It breaks my heart

Shook me to the ground now and some how
I feel like you don't know me
Shook me to the ground now I don't even know how
Brought me to a life that you never showed me
Coming from a locked up ghost of yourself
But you're coming from the light
There's more to you then you ever thought there was
Yeah you're coming from the light

Run when the rhythm's right

This semester/year is off to a great start. My class load/days are as follows:

Mondays:
Ice Skating
Yoga
Coaching
Tuesdays:
Stats
Domestic Criminal Violence
Learning, Cognition, Assessment
Sociology of Sexuality
Queer Women
Wednesdays:
Ice Skating
Alexander Technique
Yoga
Coaching
Thursdays:
Stats
Domestic Criminal Violence
Learning, Cognition, Assessment
Sociology of Sexuality
BOG
Fridays:
Rock Climbing
Mall
Saturdays:
Ice Skating
Mall
Sundays:
Catchup on sleep/homework/what-have-you

My professors are all great, my course load isn't crazy. I'm centered and focused and ready to go.
I'm snuggled on the couch with hot chocolate, it's snowing outside and nationals is on the TV. Best.

Our 2013-2014 fees proposal is officially sent it for the Q. We're hosting MOCC and a few conferences, as well planning some major events. I'm working on getting Andrea Gibson mid-April, as well as organizing the drag show and getting Magdalen Hsu Li for pride. I'm using my fall stipend to buy a ticket to see my sister for spring break.
Things are good :)